New Year DEFINITELY New Me...Pffffffftttt
So here we are - 2017 - I love New Years! Not because of the New Year New Me crap but because its an opportunity to start fresh, set new goals and to try to forget the things that were not so positive the year before.
So basically I have had the most busy, rocky and worrying 3 months...
I actually don't even know where to begin! But lets start with the court case. Applying for the parentage order was the most gut-wrenching time of my life. I'm serious MY HAIR IS ACTUALLY GREY =(
You know how you see on TV when the judge comes in and you all rise and bla bla bla...WELL What you don't see is the intimidation. We basically expected to be in and out of that room in under 10 minutes. The surrogacy case before us were in the room for 3 friggen minutes, so we were confident so would we. Well we were we wrong.
As soon as the judge walked in I knew...I knew he was not here for a cuppa and a good time. He was on a mission, a mission to make mine and Jakes life just a little bit harder then what we had already experienced. You see under the Queensland Surrogacy ACT 2010 it states that the intended parents and Surrogate parents must all be 25 years of age and older. We knew this before even starting the process of trying to get pregnant with Shayna as she was only 22 at the time. However our Doctors, Counselors and Lawyers were all 100% confident that we would scrape through being that my fertility clock had pretty much stopped working. My body is done. Even collecting eggs to freeze is putting me in hospital. Shayna was preparing to enter the workforce and get her life back on track so it only made sense that we get this done while she was still on maternity leave...
The judge was not so understanding. Infact I don't think he gave a flying hoot what circumstances we were all under. But the law is the law. So within 2 minutes of sitting there I turned to Jake and shook my head holding back my tears. I knew he was going to decline our application. YES THE APPLICATION TO KEEP MY FUCKING BABY!
I held my shit together when we left the room. Shayna - She broke down. Now that was hard to watch. She was so worried that after everything Jake and I had been through we were going to lose our daughter. Well that was that. Our case was adjourned and our lawyer was required to gather more evidence as to why we could not wait another 2-3 years.
The following week I carried around the biggest sick feeling in my stomach. As stated above my hair literally went grey. I felt like we were back to square one. Thousands of dollars worth of bills started to flood back in. Just in time for Christmas.
We will be back in that dreaded court room in the coming weeks with high hopes that this may FINALLY be it. Wish us luck =)
Jake worked 6 weeks straight with only 2 days off over November & December trying his hardest to bring in some extra money and to get our house built and Francesca started day care one day a week. We then had to move house over Christmas and New Years and then will move again in 5 weeks. I am feeling as though I am losing myself in the mist of all this and serioulsy cannot wait to just get my shit together! Lets not forget when our story hit the media! Wow what a rollercoaster that was haha. It was so hard to keep up with but so wonderful to be spreading positive surrogacy awareness all over the world! I have a Youtube account and the clip of our birth photos has reached over 540,000 views! So crazy! I will attatch the clip below <3
I am still working towards getting my own salon open - It is just proving difficult to get the perfect shop and I am not one to settle for just anything. I may just look for some part time work in the meantime because even though I am a mum and a wife I am bored? I am not sure that is the right word but thats what comes to mind. Don't get me wrong, Francesca certainly keeps me busy and I am constantly making sure Jake has food on the table, Clean clothes and a Clean house to come home to BUT I feel like I need something for myself. I miss having pocket money, routine and holidays planned. Francesca starts 3 days a week at day care at the end of this month and I feel like that is my time to get my shit together! Jake is a Real Estate Agent now so I plan to give him a hand too!
I am however grateful for being here and having the friends and family that I do! Some days are just harder then others and writing it all in a blog for you all to read somewhat takes the stress away for a little while...I guess it is a way of talking about it? Today I did't even know what day it was, slept in, put the same clothes on I wore yesterday and ate chocolate for breakfast.
p.s Sorry you have to read my shit grammar and poor spelling but I don't really care at the moment. Mwa
Thanks for reading x o x o
So basically I have had the most busy, rocky and worrying 3 months...
I actually don't even know where to begin! But lets start with the court case. Applying for the parentage order was the most gut-wrenching time of my life. I'm serious MY HAIR IS ACTUALLY GREY =(
You know how you see on TV when the judge comes in and you all rise and bla bla bla...WELL What you don't see is the intimidation. We basically expected to be in and out of that room in under 10 minutes. The surrogacy case before us were in the room for 3 friggen minutes, so we were confident so would we. Well we were we wrong.
As soon as the judge walked in I knew...I knew he was not here for a cuppa and a good time. He was on a mission, a mission to make mine and Jakes life just a little bit harder then what we had already experienced. You see under the Queensland Surrogacy ACT 2010 it states that the intended parents and Surrogate parents must all be 25 years of age and older. We knew this before even starting the process of trying to get pregnant with Shayna as she was only 22 at the time. However our Doctors, Counselors and Lawyers were all 100% confident that we would scrape through being that my fertility clock had pretty much stopped working. My body is done. Even collecting eggs to freeze is putting me in hospital. Shayna was preparing to enter the workforce and get her life back on track so it only made sense that we get this done while she was still on maternity leave...
The judge was not so understanding. Infact I don't think he gave a flying hoot what circumstances we were all under. But the law is the law. So within 2 minutes of sitting there I turned to Jake and shook my head holding back my tears. I knew he was going to decline our application. YES THE APPLICATION TO KEEP MY FUCKING BABY!
I held my shit together when we left the room. Shayna - She broke down. Now that was hard to watch. She was so worried that after everything Jake and I had been through we were going to lose our daughter. Well that was that. Our case was adjourned and our lawyer was required to gather more evidence as to why we could not wait another 2-3 years.
The following week I carried around the biggest sick feeling in my stomach. As stated above my hair literally went grey. I felt like we were back to square one. Thousands of dollars worth of bills started to flood back in. Just in time for Christmas.
We will be back in that dreaded court room in the coming weeks with high hopes that this may FINALLY be it. Wish us luck =)
Jake worked 6 weeks straight with only 2 days off over November & December trying his hardest to bring in some extra money and to get our house built and Francesca started day care one day a week. We then had to move house over Christmas and New Years and then will move again in 5 weeks. I am feeling as though I am losing myself in the mist of all this and serioulsy cannot wait to just get my shit together! Lets not forget when our story hit the media! Wow what a rollercoaster that was haha. It was so hard to keep up with but so wonderful to be spreading positive surrogacy awareness all over the world! I have a Youtube account and the clip of our birth photos has reached over 540,000 views! So crazy! I will attatch the clip below <3
I am still working towards getting my own salon open - It is just proving difficult to get the perfect shop and I am not one to settle for just anything. I may just look for some part time work in the meantime because even though I am a mum and a wife I am bored? I am not sure that is the right word but thats what comes to mind. Don't get me wrong, Francesca certainly keeps me busy and I am constantly making sure Jake has food on the table, Clean clothes and a Clean house to come home to BUT I feel like I need something for myself. I miss having pocket money, routine and holidays planned. Francesca starts 3 days a week at day care at the end of this month and I feel like that is my time to get my shit together! Jake is a Real Estate Agent now so I plan to give him a hand too!
I am however grateful for being here and having the friends and family that I do! Some days are just harder then others and writing it all in a blog for you all to read somewhat takes the stress away for a little while...I guess it is a way of talking about it? Today I did't even know what day it was, slept in, put the same clothes on I wore yesterday and ate chocolate for breakfast.
p.s Sorry you have to read my shit grammar and poor spelling but I don't really care at the moment. Mwa
Thanks for reading x o x o